Well today is Valentine's Day so I pray if you're reading this that you have a wonderful day feeling loved not only by your husband but by your Heavenly Father. As I sit here I start to reflect on how much I have changed just by knowing how much God loves me. It has been something I have always known in my heart of course but sometimes as Children of God I think we need to get a true revelation of how much He does. If I could I would spend the entire day just sitting in His presence just letting Him love on me and Me love on Him. I truly believe the Lord loves those times of us Loving on Him too. It's not just a one way street.
For the past couple of weeks the Lord has been teaching me about my love walk. So every night I try to meditate on the Love Chapter. I asked the Lord to show me ways I can love others the way that He loves. It has been so much easier for me in my job since I have realized that loving people despite their attitudes can change the outcome of any situation. In my heart I want to be one of those people who explodes with the Love of God for others. Which for those who know me best I am not much on telling people I love them because I am more of a giver. I guess you could say it's my love language. Whether it's time, gifts, or just doing something nice for someone it's just easier for me. Although there is nothing wrong with this the Lord has shown me that I have to be willing to let that vulnerable side show once in awhile. It's how people know you are real and can relate to you. I am still a work in progress but as Landon would say "We are Graced to run our race in this area of our lives too". Love that man so much.
So still wondering about the adoption? We did have an appointment with Bethany on the 4th but the snow post poned it. To be honest we were actually relieved. Why you ask? Pastor Nate talked on Sunday about us being adopted as God's children. He continued on to say that God adopted us so He could love us and gives us a better life beyond our dreams. This made us realize a few things about our adoption process. We want to adopt to give a child a better chance at life. I think when we started this journey in our minds we thought we will finally be able to have a family. This became a real faith check for me because I still believe we will have biological children of our own now more than ever. God is no respector of persons so what He did for other woman in the bible and woman I know personally He will do for Me! Does this mean we don't want to adopt anymore? UM NO! Our process is just more focused on adopting through the state and not with a private agency at this time.
As of right now this is where we will continue on until the Lord releases us otherwise. I say that because before we knew about the snow both of us had this uneasy feeling like the timing wasn't right it had nothing to do with the agency. We will use them someday if the Lord leads us back to adoption through an agency. So our home phone is being installed today and we will get our fire extinguisher then we should be ready for our home study which will take place in just a few weeks. Looking forward to continuing on this journey with the Peace that only God can give us. Praying for a child whose life we can change, love, and add to our little family of two.
Today I will remember Love is patient. Dear child your parents are here patiently awaiting your arrival........
